I don’t know how many of you out there are American Idol fans, but I am and tune in most of the time. All the annoying auditions are over, America’s voted, and we are into the top final twelve. One was sent home at the end of the show Wednesday night.

For those of you who don’t watch much Idol, once you get to the final 12 contestants, each week is a themed week and the contestants have to perform a song that fits in with that theme or genre of music. This week’s theme was Dianna Ross songs and she came earlier in the week and worked with each of the contestants on their chosen Dianna Ross song. During the show, she was performing a medley of songs and I was half paying attention to her and half paying attention to whatever my hubby was saying at the moment. I tuned in a little more when I the chorus of More Today than Yesterday caught my attention. I’ve heard the song before but this time when I heard the chorus, I immediately thought of my children.

Oh, I love you more today than yesterday
But not as much as tomorrow
I love you more today than yesterday
But only half as much as tomorrow

Those words just grabbed my attention and thoughts of Noah and Charlie started running through my head. I remember when Noah was born, I was so blown away by how much I could love this tiny little person I’d just met. I was amazed at the love and motherly instincts that just came flooding through me the first time I held him.

And it happened all over again with Charlie. Even though I’d made an adoption plan and knew I wouldn’t be parenting him, I still felt the same flood of motherly emotions that I felt with Noah.

Just when I think I can’t love either of them anymore than I already do, I do, somehow I love them more! I am continually amazed and in awe of these two beautiful little boys whom I love with all of my heart and soul that are a part of me.