Earlier in the month, I shared with you that Charlie has asked me to go with him, his Mom, and his class on an upcoming field trip. That field trip is this Friday! I am excited (a little nervous too) about going. However, I am feeling a little bit of guilt. I think that it is probably normal guilt for Moms who have more than one child but this is the first time I have experienced it.


In order to be able to go on this field trip with Charlie, I have to interrupt Noah’s routine a little bit and as a special needs child he needs routine and gets bent out of shape if it is interrupted. It will be easier if I go to Charlie’s house the night before the field trip and stay there overnight since the field trip is early in the morning and I’d have to get up at the crack of dawn in order to be there on time. (Which I would do if I had to though!) My hubby works nights though so this has left me with a dilemma because I obviously can not leave Noah home alone to sleep and get on the bus all by himself!


After some creative thinking, I asked my oldest niece if she could come to my home, spend the night, and get Noah up, ready, and on the bus for school. She’s babysat him before and has stayed overnight many times and I know Noah is comfortable with her, but I still just feel guilty that I have to interrupt Noah’s routine. He will probably be fine and I know he will be very happy to see my niece as he adores her, but I still feel guilty. I feel torn between spending time with my birth son and my responsibilities of my parented son.


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