The downside to my recent visit with Charlie and his family for his Kindergarten graduation has been dealing with my emotions afterwards. It was bittersweet being able to attend his graduation ceremony. It was amazing spending time with him and seeing his personality come through more than I ever have before.

But at the same time leaving him was so hard. Usually I try to prepare myself ahead of time for the “goodbye.” I tend to try and think of it as “see... more

Today is Blue Monday, which is said to be the most depressing day of the most depressing week of the entire year. Blue Monday occurs on the Monday of the last full week of January. Depression is thought to be at its peak for many people during this time of year and sadly, the most suicides of the year occur on Blue Monday.

So, why is today thought to be the most depressing day of the whole year? According to a British researcher, it is a combination of post holiday blues, Seasonal... more

Even though the Christmas holidays are stressful and emotional, I still love them. Ever since I was a child, Christmas has always been my favorite holiday and even still now that I am dealing with the emotions that go along with being a birthmother at the holidays, I still enjoy Christmas.

But as I grow older each year after the holidays, I find myself depressed, down, and blue. There is typically so much anticipation, excitement, and emotion involved in Christmas and then it’s pretty much all over in one day. Plus, as birthmothers we are dealing with the emotions... more

I must admit that I have been personally struggling with depression but the past week and a half has been much better than the past two weeks have been. I think that the depression results around my adoption issues that play right into the secondary infertility issues that my husband and I are facing coupled with seasonal changes that I deal with on a yearly basis at this time of the year.

I have been trying to avoid medications. Not that I view antidepressant medications as a weakness, but since we are technically still trying to conceive, I would prefer to be on as few of medications... more